Needish

We have already had some moments of glory, others of despair - since we founded our company. More will come, better moments I hope - worse ones for sure.  If life was a constant feeling of being numb, it probably wouldn’t be much fun at all. But if running your own company was a constant feeling of being numb, life would probably be more fun. Right now I‘d say we are in a pre-everything kind of nervous state of mind. I know I am. May is by far the most boring month of NEEDISH so far. Considering that we have had some interesting dialogues with some new investors, that says a lot about the other months… January meant getting onboard. Did I really want to do this? To be honest, hell no. I was happy just the way I was. But there was a defining moment when I suddenly realized “I am onboard, and I want to be here!” Februray was cold like hell in Sweden, and I traveled a lot. We decided to buy tickets go to Chile. So far, it had been only three guys kidding around, and suddenly we were two guys flying half across the globe to change the world. March meant preparations for Chile. Working late hours almost every day. This was the month when it really kicked in. We were doing it. And it hurt. I was tired. So tired. April was Chile. We were in Chile. Dani and Juan met for the very first time. They didn’t hate each other; hence the last obstacle was overthrown. Love was in the air. We had joy, we had fun, we had a weekend in the sun and when we came back we managed to raise 100000 dollars. I had to resign. So I did. Big month. Huge. May? May has been kicking along I guess, but it hasn’t really changed the course of the company… that’s what I hate with May… nothing has really happened to change the way we think of ourselves. Not yet. And we are definitely too early in this business (are we even to be considered in business?) to start enjoying the past. Maybe this is why I woke up today and wrote an e-mail to the others, basically saying (looong email): “We are crap and we need to improve this and this and this and that”, wrapping up with a “maybe I worry without reason, didn’t mean to be mean… good luck guys!” I guess they hate me right now, for being such a pain in the ass. I hope it was worth it. Anyway we are very much a cyber-organization so far, and hate never shows its ugly face (it only shows as subtle messages in e-mails)… and it’s not really hate… of course it’s not! But strong words like hate can make a weak blog worth reading. Love from Sweden to all NEEDISH people out there / Oskar